My beautiful children which you can see in the Photos section have a long history even at their tender ages.

I was with a mentally abusive person. After I had my second child I fell into a major depression that I self medicated with drugs. After I met the love of my life and was able to break free of this madman I still had a physical addiction to these drugs which I am in the process of beating now, The problem is - my ex uses this to smear my good name when he is the biggest pothead on the planet. I am a capable, beautiful person whose only flaw is being too honest. I am now nervous that this man could do irreversible harm to my children and want to be at the top of my game when I knock him down. And it's coming. I can't even go into what he tried to pull the other day it is so horrible. He is a very sick man who needs counseling and I want what's best for my children. Since he is in the suburbs and I am in the city I thought it would be in their best interst to be there during the week and I will get them every weekend, not realizing that he is still angry with me for leaving him FOUR years ago. FOUR years and he still carries on this way. Now I am terrified of what I have done and am trying to avoid going to court and having to inflict a cutody battle on all parties involved but I am at a point where I am REALLY concerned about my children's well being. Especially when my son, crying his eyes out, told me that he hates being at daddy's and wants to come to mommy's. My daughter is having nightmares and my ex tried to twist this around to a very sick thing that I can't even bring myself to write because it was so wrong. And when he realized that no one was paying attention to it - he stopped. That's how I know it was a lie. I am at my wits end and lost 8 pounds this week because I couldn't hold down anything that I ate.
Everything this tells me is that I have to get on my feet financially. I have a good job but got myself into debt with that year and a half when I fell into the addiction hard. Now I am getting myself out slowly but surely. Once I am totally out I am going to save my children from this madman. He is a sick man and any judge would see the lies and harm he is inflicting by keeping my children from being able to breathe. They are going to resent him as my son is already building up a wall of anger and resentment. I am a fantastic mother. My own father is a hard drinker but was the best father on the planet and still is. Just because he had problems with my mother, he never took it out on his two girls, me being one of them. I go to him still for advice as he's the smartest man I know. Just because someone is addicted to something doesn't make them stupid. This society is becoming a hell hole of self righteous assholes. Hypocrites and closet freaks who will do anything to lash out on others. It is a sad state we are in. But people, like myself, who sit back, watch and wait, ready to strike and win because they are truthful and honest will reign. 
For anyone out there trying to save their children I can empathize with you. I WILL save my children - they are the most important things on the planet to me... Stay tuned

of assholes my ex being one of them - all my life I had to fight people's jealousy, arrogance when I just wanted to be a creative person bringing people joy wiith my words -I love the people who understand the artist- this shit is out of control, the people living in that box, leave the planet jealous people who thrive on making me look bad - I will keep my guard for now, closet freaks get the most respect because they act fake and phoney like the rest of the world

I wanna win everything! I just have to figure out my gameplan...is everybody watching football?? Come on, Eagles, try to break out of the Philly Sports mode for once - I am so tired of our teams...1980 was the last time we won anything...big
My ass is getting big - I must do something about that...and I'm pressed for time today - will be back home soon and I can get back into my Philly-brain, something happens when I'm on vacation - I lose my anger and get soft - not healthy for a sick girl...

But I will return and when I do all hell is breaking loose!

And I purposely spelled it like that so no goofball haters please - anyway - I just got theiir Essentials which I told you guys some time ago but it's soooooooooooooo fucking awesome - one of the pictures of Layne, God he looks hot. It is such a shame - I read that he got depressed because his girlfriend died and then he became a recluse? A heroin booting recluse? Doesn't sound so bad.... sikkkkkke - remember that word? or am I the only OLD HEAD around here? They were genius. I think I am in love with dead people - because Rick James has been a fascination of mine for a while....I was digging Amy Whinehouse for a while whose half dead - I feel for that girl...I know what it's like to be in your twenties and be completely drug drenched and confused. She should appreciate her youth now...it doesn't last...I can attest to that - not that I'm old - I am in my thirties and am fast approaching forty - I went to college and got a degree in my twenties - had babies in my thirties and in my forties I hope to get my books rolling...The path to freedom is paved through discipline. Words of wisdom I received from a man named Saul someone I met while dancing back in the early nineties - a strange place to get advice - but good advice nonetheless.
Debbie 

I was on Zolar's Midnight Hour or whatever the fuck its called - I couldn't remember the name - I just worked 9 straight hours my head was about to explode..just wanted to check in - they played a good prank on me - I love being fucked with (to a certain degree), anyone who doesn't has no sense of humor...I have to work on the book, I'm spending way too much time looking up dead people on the internet...Shout out to ZOLAR!

Everyone can say this and yet...no truer words have ever been spoken for me. I just want to write a fucking book - I know I'm jumping ahead - THe Destroyer is me past to present a few years back - the real trip is GLock 17 and the Destroyer - the next one. Wait until you get a gander at the shit I know now....you think prison is rough? Trying living with the gatekeeper

This is a brand new world for me, my children and my book - it's taken me TWENTY years to move foreward...and I am going to make a great author

Excellent - highly recommeded especially - Track 7 1st disk

I have to fight a lot of demons to get this book out, I hope if it helps one person the way other authors have helped me I will feel as if I've given back. I am still fighting a sickness that will not last. I will not allow it to take over my life anymore. I am determined to give my children the best life possible...I am determined to be strong and to have nothing hold me back. I am determined....

     We had a great day - 6 years old - My son is SIX! I am taking care of my babies and trying to type the cult book of the century at the same time. It's tough being a legend,,,

     Anyway, I took the Howard picture down only because it is too old and grainy, not because I was getting shit for it...I wasn't too thrilled with the picture. I want a new picture of me up there. Something to wet your wistle, too. My book, "The Destroyer" will be coming out in 2008. It is the story of a young girl from Philadelphia in search of love, deep, meaningful love. What she gets is a lot of intense, meaningless sex and a deeply destructive addiction to heroin. It is an ultimately uplifting tale of how one girl whose life spirals to the bottom begins digging her claw into The Top, one brick at a time. 
     Originally titled "Blonde on Top." I changed the story because Part II, "Glock 17 and the Destroyer" fits with the meeting of the love of her life she so desperately sought after, a cop who carries, what else? a Glock. It turns out all is not what it seems and the ones who give her what she is seeking for are the ones she least expected, her children.

     For every one who is a mother, a lover, a troublemaker, a sexy mother fucking piece of ass who wants what she wants at all cost, even before learning that what you seek might not be what you find, and what is satisfying is learning that true love is something within yourself, this book is for you - and for all those who think I am a babbling piece of psychosis - you're right! But damn if I ain't entertaining and beautiful....
God Bless
Queen Debbie

Now I know that queefing and literary endevours don't work = and I find it strange that Huggy scoffs at my rambling and set has a  SELF PULBISHED book,...I will make it you mother fuckers I don't care how fucked up the site is now

In October, Opium magazine will be publishing me...I hope this is a start as I know my writing still needs work, particularly in the editing area - but what are editors for? I am the perfect promotional vehicle- and I welcome everyone to submit their work. Soon there will be contests because I want everyone to be able to express themselves. I don't like the fact that sometimes the literary world (due to financial obligations, etc) cannot take chances like they did in say, the 1970's. Would something like Attachments by Judith Rossner be accepted into today's market - I wonder - movies such as I Spit on Your Grave...which was actually, brutal, but well done, would that be made? Everything has become watered down and PC = it is time for a revolution - let it begin here, literary wise anyway - which is appropriate with Howard Stern on the same page, creating his own revolution on Satellite...It's all about dreams and making it...it's all about enlightenment and self pride in one's artistic endevours...
God Bless
Debbie - I love all of you...

The above picture is of me with Howard Stern - I have been with his show for ten years. The picture is ten years old. I am going to get new pictures. This was all I have for now. Some people might get turned off to the Queefgirl image but it is something I am proud of, as any of my accomplishments. I have a college degree and am more proud of my Howard Stern connection then the degree - degree equals corporate sell out - I recently got back my files for my book "The Destroyer"  which is the predecessor to "Glock 17 and the Destroyer". I originally was going to title my book "Blonde on Top" because I'm blonde and I love it on top but since I am a destroyer (read lyrics to the Destroyer by the Kinks) I retitled the book and will be promoting it soon.  I have always been an avid reader and have had life changing experiences through the writtern word. I hope that my book will do the same for others. It's all about art. To quote Howard, who I admire said something very profound one time - (not just once, but...) To be an artist, some will love you, some will hate or laugh at you and some will just appreciate you for just being an artist...

I am looking through my files, fixing up my book and looking for new pictures....tell me what you from this website....I aim to please...
 

She's stuck there - but that's OK I kind of dig her - I am going to see Rob Zombie's "Halloween" and I either hear that it sucks or it's not that bad - I like Rob Zombie and liked both Devil's Rejects and 1000 corpses - I thought they were both original if anything else. 

I encourage all of you aspiring writers out there to submit anything....give it your best shot - I'll post down and dirty or uppercrusty and snobbish. I just want to create a place for the people, esp. for people who are having trouble getting their name out there - if you want post a small picture of yourself next to your literary journal entry

Love,. Debbie

The help that I need to post pictures of lovely ladies, hot men and others is coming...just give it a chance - It'll be up and running in no time