I do enjoy working. It;s exhausting and I miss the time with my kids but this summer will be great - a new condo - a playground with a pool, my little babies, what more could I ask for???
My Jake and Jessie are thanked in the Destroyer and I can't wait until the book comes out and it's forever for them -to last for generation after generation after generation -if it's not a big hit now - it might be one day...
Forensic Files is on at 9 tonight - I can't wait; it's my absolute favorite show in the whole world...
The only one I watch consistently. I miss staying up all night watching TV now that I am working. And reading everything and anything. But I have been buying clothes like a motherfucker that's fo' so' 
    
    From not doing drugs in so long I had a major Oxycontin drug dream last night, It was so real, so severe - it had me shaking - I was in Thrift Drug in the Morrell Park of my youth and the guy I know who is Patrick O'Malley in The Destroyer was there with a friend and I was trying to get pictures processed and some drug dealer who I knew in the dream but not in real life was trying to get me high and I was loving it - Oxycontin is better than heroin-- it just is - it makes you speed - H just makes you nod - God drugs would be so fun if they weren't so addictive...that's my thoughts for the day and for those of you who are mad at me for a variety of reasons because I KNOW you're always out there you jealous pathetic pricks with no lives - fuck off!
My life is great again...I'm as cocky as I want to be...and am

Because of my new job I don't know when I can get out of the hospital so I agreed that my ex has them Mon-Thurs - me Fri - Mon - tentatively - just until we all get ajusted - then in the summer we can mix it up again - my son misunderstood and wailed on the phone "How could you, Mommy? How could you give me away?" I Was trying to explain what was really happening and then my daughter who is 4 going on 21 gets on the phone and demands "What you doin', mom?"
I can't wait to move to our fancy two bedroom two bathroom condo with the pool and the playground and everything for the kids!!!  I love them so and my heart BLEEDS for my sensitive son - my daughter is tough as nails - my son, he wiorries me,,,

I made the corrections to my book though I love my children but work is HARD - I am too tired to write talk later

The Destroyer won't be ready until mid March - I found a few more mistakes and I don't care if 20 people buy the book - I want it to be as perfect as possible. I started my new job today - 8 to 5:15 it was a looooong day. I am very tired I will write back - Forensic Files is coming on soon - our Toshiba 50 inch broke and won't be fixed for a WEEK what will I do watching TV on a dinky 32 inch??? What will I DO?????

and I mean fucked as in, made love to, but also fucked in that I read the Destroyer and found TWO GLARING unacceptable mistakes that have to be fixed I don't care if I spend a small fortune on something I never make any money off of - there is no way I am letting those books go out like that unless it's too late and then on my website I will just tell the mistakes - oh what a disaster - I am sooo upset I should have reread it more carefully but I took my editors advise but he's only one person and originally he found 50 mistakes! That's what editors are there for - but these two - they just can't be - well, it's going to be another month or so for the book but I can't let it go out looking the way it does - although I did just sign the release - this is the last time I self publish if I can't do it the traditional way I just won't do it - it's too hard and too much room for mistakes...
Debbie - and my first day of work is tomorrow and I am so nervous as it is....

First off I gave my ok for the book though I found a few erros in it - technical but I want it to be raw - it will be ready Thursday Feb 28, 2008 in hard and soft cover. I have almost 8,000 hits on this website - peanuts but I love each and every one of you guys and girls and with repests I aiways estimate 100 readers maybe slightly more. Anyway, I just want TEN TEN I will give anyone who asks a free autographed picture of me debbie@queendebbie.com  just ask and I can't wait for feeback. I am really excited about it. I will write more and put a link to amazon - get it cheap I don't care I just want my art to be out there...

Within the next week - xlibris.com or amazon,com will have the book - I will get the link to this site THE DESTROYER HAS ARRIVED!!!

The book is the last thing to come out - whether I sell ten or ten thousand I don't care - I just want to get feedback from SOMEONE besides my good friend Marvin - who is as objective as he can be, When anyone is down - I had THE WORST LAST SIX MONTHS OF MY LIFE from July to December - the WORST just about suicidal - now I am flying high - on top of the world - everything is going my way. But that goes to show everyone out there that things can change in a minute and if anyone is down and out - just go with the flow - everything will turn out all right in the end, I'm moving into this swanky condo in MAY I can't wait - my ex is going to try to get the kids from me because I am - on drugs, don't have a job, and live in a bad neighborhood - when a - I have six months and above of certified clean drug reports and the court lawyer AND JUDGE both told me they completely admired my ability to do it BY myself - no one fought to get me help I've never been arrested or in trouble with the law in my entire life - I may march to the beat of a different drummer and for some reason that drives the sheep in this world crazy BUT then, I got a job at a kick ass place who did extensive background and tests on me all which came out in flying colors and then to top it off, the swank condo - and I found these old naked pictures of me (I will try my best to get knew ones) at least sheer lingerie shots - remember I have a jealous boyfriend with a gun - think Robert Dinero in Taxi Driver and you get the picture., looks and everything - did I spell dinero right, it doesn't look right???? Anyway, I love my man, he fucks like a beast and I will love him till the day I die - not because of his dick but because he gave to me something that no man ever had and that's self confidence - before I met him I felt inferior to people in general - now I realize that I am better than everyone else, just kidding, seriously, he just made me realize that I am a good person and people always taking shots at me are either just messing with me to see what I'm made of or jealous because in the end, I am totally blessed - I love you James - I love you like I never have anyone else and I'll put up with your shit til I die as long as you keep teaching me...

some tits - granted these are some old pictures but believe it or not I'm only about 20 pounds heavier and most of it is in my tits - I'll get some new ones - just satisfying the masses...(my 100 guests of whom every single one I love and appreciate)

When I was stripping! I have ones in less and less and LESS clothing- I'm waiting fo' webmasta' numba 2 to finish = I'll get them all and make a page out of them for you - right in time for the Destroyer to come out - there's another one on portfolio page but I really want to see me with small tits - there so big now, they're all in my face, I want to see when they were perky and bouncy...pencil trick no way could work back then(put a pencil under your boob and if it stays you have big ones - except that the older you get the game takes on new meaning) -- and my job starts on Monday! YEAH! I work again - I'm a worker. I enjoy working and it's going to be at a place that challenges me. My last job paid 31.00 an hour - some might consider that bad, some good, but I hated every fucking second of it and THANK THE LORD above they let me go- I finished my book and got a better job - and my man is all hot again- see now remember I wanted to hang myself - I am back at the peak of the mountain - so ---you can do it too - don't give up EVER - you don't know what might be around the corner!
Love and Kisses, Debbie - naughtier pics to come...

My baby has a Long John, but,  in reference to above I was thinking of Long John Silvers - I have such a craving for one and in Philly we just don't have them here - in Pittburgh they were all over the place - not here. I just found one on Girard Ave or around here 'Girad' like zink and zewer - J said to this guy who said his zink was backed up - "it's not a mineral, bro" it's a sink - anyway - had someone blow their head off with a shot gun last night - depression -
     I was at a baby shower where this girl was so whacked on heroin I was salvating - talk about temptation! I almost couldn't take it but since T has been in jail - there's been no temptation - he's my worst enemy and everyone knows it - but man did he get the best - killa' was KILLA'  and the only reason I've been doing all this smack talk lately is because I haven't been high in a loooong, loooong time - admirable? yes - fun - NONONO
     And alas, I found 30 negatives of me at age 21 naked, I am going to get them printed, I'll put them here, J can't get mad at that could he - there too old. I know he'd freak if I did anything but lingerie here. I still have a half decent looking vehicle but damn - back then I WAS the shit!

Now, this is a blatant dig on counties, as I detest small towns (sorry middle america, you're beautiful but narrow minded; as a rule, there are many exceptions) mostly the county cops who write tickets. I'm talking about the real deals, the inner city cops - they see such shit all the time, I think their minds get screwed to the point that they can't see the beauty in life anymore and EVERYONE IS SUSPECT. I go through writing binges, just like with drugs, not right now though, kiddie courts, ahem, anyway, so my next binge is going to be a crazy psycho cop drama because if anyone now knows about crazy psycho cops, it's me.
     I went to J's Lt.'s house for a party and they were telling ME that J is hard - so I cannot imagine, I just cannot imagine. He's as tough as an ice scuplture in the Antartics.
     That being said, do you know who make the biggest asses of themselves? And believe me, I do it all the time, so I'm not judging, but GOD do they annoy me - that Heidi Motang I think her last name is, and the Pratt boyfriend from the Hills - that video they just shot was/is downright hilarious - you go gaybirds - member that word? - gaybird? - if you're as old as I am you do.
Also I was reading my amazon.com book reviews because I am an avid avid reader and I wanted to let any readers here know and I do get about 100 a day, and I'm damn proud of those hundred that there is a movie - if you can find it from the seventies, a British movie which, OK, it's not the Warriors (Walter Hill, you rock) but it's damn good - Psychomania - about a group of British kids who kill themselves and then come back to life - creepy. I saw it at an old boyfriend's house in 1989 for the first time and the guy who was going out with my sister at the time - Cliff Nartinaucci, that was his last name, RIP  - hung himself on the banister stairs of the guy I was seeing soon after we watched that movie.
     We'll call the guy who owned the house Johnnie, since he is in the Destroyer (coming out in less than two months by the way) and the whole story is in there - except in real life Cliff was my sister's beau. Well after hanging himself with an electical chord in Johnnie's stairway, and he was five foot nine and the gap was 6 feet at best - I'll never figure out how he did it - but this one time I was going out with a black guy, at the same time as Johnnie, and he was really into selling crack, well I was sneaking out of my house and into Johnnie's because I was mad at, we'll call him Tyrone since that's my all time favorite black man's name, well Tyrone was pissed at me for something and was chasing me and I ran through Johhnie's basement, I was clutching onto an Indian Head necklace that Tyrone said he was going to take back from me because I was a bad girl, at the time, boy was I ever, but I'm proud to say I still got that Head, baby, to this DAY!...so here I am clutching onto this Indian head supposedly blessed by a Cherokee with power and I had to walk past the very spot where Cliff hung only days earlier and I hid there - by myself -
     I was shitting fucking Valiums.
     I shook and quaked and thought of Psychomania and thought if I were ever to have contact with a ghost who is stuck in some fucked up world it would be now - needless to say, Johnnie came home asked me what the fuck I was doing crouched in his basement and them Tryone knocked on the door - Johnnie told him I wasn't there - Tyrone left- we went out for another year or so after that - but back then being a white and black couple was extremely difficult and neither of us could take the nigger lover shit - it's so fucked up that people think like that...but the point of this story is - get Psychomania - and pray for dear Cliffy - he was all fucked up on cocaine when he died - so there's another moral - don't do cocaine to the point of hanging yourself - what a fucking waste - guy had a kid and everything... 

I am in a very bad mood today - and I can't snap out of it - my kids who I love more than life itself are driving me crazy and J is right there with them - he is getting on my nerves more than they are. This job is taking an awfully long time with this clearance shit I mean what am I a terrorist - Fuck Off!

Both have redeemed themselves now if you excuse me Forensic Files is on! And my new job contacted me - it won't be much longer and I'll be a working woman once again.
Debbie

For once it's not my lack of computer savvy - it's on their end - this register.com and if they don't fix I'll go elsewhere - this has been a problem for a week now - as I get older I have less patience - one or two chances and that's all I can take - so FIX IT - my best pictures are locked away inside and Vicki's Secret can't even get my slutty clothes order right - what is happening to this world and customer service - though I do admit that both register,com and VS are at least TRYING to sound like they care and you know what I just thought - seriously - both of my children - 4 and 6 years old are healthy and happily playing Star Wars II on PS2 their giggling sometimes frenetic yelling in the background warms the cockles of my heart....that's what's truly important...cock is number two and flashy my watash is number three

If pages are not coming up on this site  - I don't know what is wrong - everything was going fine until last week and then bedlam struck and I am too spent to deal with it right now - every fucking day I have little and little more shit keeping me company and this job I am supposed to have gotten a friggin month ago- I am hired and yet -- am I working, no? Why? I have no idea - I paaed all their tests, stood on my head and spit rubber nickels and did everything they wanted me to do and it has had no effect on speeding up the process - as with everything corporate they want all and they want it yesterday and they want more of it,. I just want to watch forensic files and do drugs - really that is my dream - NO, I won't do drugs, so my ex, don't go running to the courts crying about what an addict I am - I AM an addict to the severest extent - drugs, sex and shopping but the drug one I stopped, not because of ANYTHING other than the fact people thought I couldn't stop - I can really stop any time I want, but as the wisdom filled David Crosby once pontificated "I get high for no other reason than that I enjoy it" and NO I am not making a mockery of it so everyone just calm the hell down. 
My Victoria's Secret $400.00 order got all mixed up - I've been ordering from the same addresses for the last 15 years maybe even longer (whenever I started making money, good money - can you believe my first job out of high school in '88 I made 4.50 an hour!!!) I quickly moved from that arena to stripping, in dive bars so my dad and his friends wouldn't find me, but even there I was making about $300.00 a night in four/five hour shifts doing nothing but having a blast, pulling 1500 hundred a week tax free(prove it IRS!!!) and...having f-u-n - ANYWAY, man I loved those days, the coke was free and the clothing was light and the hot studs plentiful and the term slut was a good one. Sooo soo long ago. Where was I?  -oh, back to reality - so I have never had a problem with VS until this week when they send my freaking shit to my mom's address which wouldn't be bad except that when me and J were baring fangs in November/December I switched my address all over town and somehow VS got a hold of it and I put a hold on everything when he fucked me right again and NOW everything regarding my mail is screwy screwy screwy just like this website is now...but my book THE DESTROYER will be available through amazon and this site- but go to amazon just to make sure and it'll probably cheapest there because unlike most - I don't care about money one bit regarding the book - I just want it to be read - and that's a fact JACK.  SO bear with my site as I get my VS order straight and I o'promise I will wear the most scintillating (spelled right, not sure, don;t care) outfit I get from there - Love all of you - Baby Girl 

First off, I will have a new job, second a new place to live - one with an inground pool and a place for my kids to fish and play in the playground and ride their bikes - a safe place with a guard out front  - I am so excited I just can't wait - I am getting rid off all this garbage and starting fresh I will just need a small Uhaul for all of the clothes I just bought I probably in the last six months spent 3-5,000 dollars on clothes EASY and that was at bargain prices, some not -  I do slurge on Coach bags and shit because I am soooo worth it...and my little angels get whatever their heart desires - toys and video games another 3,000 = easy - so my spending has to slow as I only have about 18,000 left and I want to redo a condo in style baby style - that ain't that much but it's a start....I love being a somewhat spoiled bitch I am not a millionaire but I aint no broke nigger that's fo sho'

for the six of us we spent about 300 dollars to stare at a bunch of fish - but the kids had a good time  I'm waiting on so many different things. My ex spent 5,000 dollars on this "psychological evaluation" - and I told the guy - of course a hick weed shit hole like Bucks County would accept it because they have nothing better to do out there than create problems and write tickets - and I am all for psychology - I've been seeing a psych for four years and I love him - he's like a second father at this point but in the eyes of the court for your kids - there are crack heads out there watching their kids with little problems and I'm being serious. IT's so silly - I really wish my ex would DROP DEAD and I don't care who the fuck reads this -he's such a hickweed asshole pockmarked small dicked fuck I just don't have ANY respect for him at all and when he got his DUI who was there to pick him up - that won't ever happen again...I was way too nice to him and look what happened he turned around and stabbed me in the back If he does drop dead now all fingers would point to me but don;t worry I would never really do it - he'll dig his own grave I' m sure - then my children will be saved from this madman

I am having a VERY bad day and am going to bed I will be back tomorrow I can't believe all the stuff I just wrote was erased this server is very much getting on my nerves- hopefully i can remember some of what I had to tell you guys - I think right now I might throw up

manner what I was doing wrong - thank you sir = now I can breathe again since the rest of my life is in such disarray - and I don't even care if I spelled that wrong I have to go my brain is in swim mode again and I need a break - I'll read something or think of something to write about tomorrow Debbie

everything I printed is not printing so this is a test I will have to contact register another annoying thing that's happening in my life

Now I have to look for a house or an apt or wherever the fuck we are supposed to move - and you know what the fuck I am going to do - I'm going fucking shopping so fuck every man in my life and look out Macy's here I come as usual nothing is going my way - things do for maybe one second and then the world falls apart - I've given up I just don't care anymore - where's my credit card? I just can't stand being the good girl -- it gets me nowhere - where's my mother fucking reward - such a joke - you have to be a mean miserable bastard to get anything in this world - anything - and now my ex who's not even the biological father wants to take my children away from me - he can go suck my twat - oh that's right - he can't he doesn't even have a dick to fuck with, his tongue his longer and he can't even use that - DIE SUCKER

asshole they are until you were gone? Well that is the situation I am in now - I took this hick out of the woods like a bigfoot douchbag handed him the world  - he followed me around like a lost puppydog and now he's trying to take kids that aren't even his away from me is that some jerkoff shit or what - I will write this on my website - I WISH HE WAS DEAD - I really really do - maybe he'll get killed in a horrific car accident and then my children will be safe from this evil evil twisted sick pockmarked one inch dicked fuck and I don't care who the fuck reads this - I'll bring this to the courts myself  it's how I feel - telling my son he's never going to see his mother again - what the fuck? I played nicey nicey for far too fucking long - that's my fucking problem I'm too mother fucking nice - so if you - possibly the God Hates Fags Group and I love Homosexuals - they are the BOMB - my hair dresser Jeffrey is a flamer and I LOVE HIM so I mean fag as in dickhead - not sexual orientation - gay men are my favorite - but if you see some big nosed pock-marked manchild with an ass for a face walking around - do what you will - just don't try to rip his dick off - I am not kidding when I say that he doesn't have one....

I had an interview on Jan 11th - drug tests TB tests criminal background checks - everything - this is ridiculous- when the fuck do I start - it's a month later - I want it now!!!! My book is taking too long = and Jimmy is back in asshole cop mode- it never fucking ends never - I wish I knew how fucked up cops were before I started dating one - they are VERY hard to deal with

He is an asshole - I see right through that money grubbing control freak and he is a failed artist - number one. He is obviously a control freak - we all know there is something wrong with Britney. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out BUT to go to these lengths (and I fucking hate Keven's lawyer, sorry forgot his name, but he even looks like a slime ball) But any mother will tell you, that to be taken from your kids is/would be a nightmare of epic proportions - and there is just no excuse for doing what he is doing - she's that sick? Allow supervised visits with someone who can control the situation - she's locking herself in the bathroom, not because she's going to hurt the kid, for the love of God, but because she's HAD IT! She is perfectly capable of taking care of those kids - OK, make her take a limo instead of driving them but to play devil's advocate - back in the 70's I remember bouncing around my dad's Caddy like a jumping bean - I don't even remember there being seat buckles in the back set. She's in pain and taking her kids away is worsening the situation. She needs a good psychiatrist and a good medication to get her back on track. I was somewhat in her position after the birth of my second child - I hate to admit that I even hallucinated a bit a few times but I took an anti-depressent for a year and now this great fabulous doctor - Dr. K - to conceal his name - he is THE MAN and I will probably see him for the rest of my life. He got me back on track. That's what she needs. A really good doctor. He is fabulous. I tried cheaper doctors - he is five hundred a month plus meds - and no insurance but my mental health is more important and I tried cheaper and slipped right back - right now I am thisclose to a major breakthrough and I want to keep the train rolling. All this has to do with Britney - My heart bleeds for you, girl and hopefully Federline will get what he deserves - he's not about the kids - if he was I'd have a little sympathy for him but he's all about himself - he was in some bar sucking down Pitrone or whatever and on the third freebie they refused him because he wasn't buying - he got all pissed off and left - what a fucking jerk...
On a lighter note I was at babiesrus today and this rich bitch - you know the type - thought she had a tractor to park with and there was a car behind me and she wouldn't pull in and she looked at me and I said, "Whatdya' got a tractor trailer there?" and she grimaced and said, "How Nasty" Now I consider that a compliment - that Ms. Eden to you, honey....thank you

I just had the best fucking sex. My man knows how to take care of me - I drempt my whole life of someone who could fuck me like a beast in heat and I found him. He has the best cock the best attitude and though we had a trying experience in November and December we are back on top - I want to be his wife soooo bad and he promises me when the time is right he'll surprise me with a ring. I love the shit out of him. He wants to fuck me again - gotta go...