I can't believe how fast time flies when you are working it's like the weeks just fly - I was on amazon.com and found a 10 best true crime book stories and ordered a few - I love true crime and live with a cop - and am completely obsessed with Forensic Files but they changed it to 11:00 pm on the weeknights and my kids are here during Forensic Fridays and want to watch Ben 10 and all that shit. I don't know why the criminal element excites me so..
I am planning a chuckie cheese party - how exciting is that other than that just waiting for The Destroyer to come out.
Also the guy from The Howard Stern Show - Kenneth Keith I have to give a little RIP to - yeah he was a goofball as all the wackpackers are but it's a shame he had to go down like that, jeez, life is strange..,.
He was just on my email asking me to hook him up with a hottie and now he is hopefully in hottie heaven - I had to say something about him because a lot of people talk their smack but he never hurt anyone - well, allegedly...ahem...
Peace

I never remember being so off with time - I have no idea what time it is anymore...

No more mice - I do miss the action but the cleanliness and being away from drug dealers helps. I am having a good time - my sister who is 8 months pregnant was fired today by these assholes for a company she worked for 15 years - they took it over last year and gave her problems immediately. I can't believe they did that to her - what fucking assholes.
I on the other hand have been at my new job 2 months now, my probation ends in 33 days and I've had a few bumps but I think they dig me. I like it there - no more problems then anywhere else. You will find problems no matter where you go - but the thing I like about it is that I went to school for five years and for twelve years I worked in a factory NOW I am doing what I went to school for and I appreciate the hundreds of emails and compliments I get on a daily basis - remember - stay away from DRUGS - I have never felt better in my life - they are garbage and will steal your soul. I love life though I get depressed quite frequently but I've always battled depression. My whole life,
The one thing about this job that's really hard is that I miss the fuck out of my children. My babies. My angels. My Prince and Princess. They are so precious and special to me I don't know how I ever existed without them. I am gravida 4 para 2 and I will never tell why - that means I was pregnant four times once when I was 19 once when I was 28 again at 30 and then at 32 - never had any problems getting pregnant and I severely regret what happened to the first two pregnancies I believe that stems a lot of my deep deep depression - there are necessary evils in this world but I do think number one was warranted number two was a mistake and what can I do now - I can't turn back time but I would have four children and I wish I did - but the two I do have are my prizes and angels and miracles from God who I will NEVER BETRAY AGAIN.
I am not getting all Steven Baldwin Jesus freak but God loves me and wants me to do my best and I will do that because he has done nothing but bless me time and time and time again,,,,
I LOVE YOU ALL AND WISH MY HUBBY WASN"T so JEALOUS I would be totally naked. I love being naked. I love my body. The babies messed up my stomach a little but my tits and ass are so cool - my tits REALLY COOL. I love the way J sucks on them when he's giving it to me sooo hard - he hurts me a lot he gives it to me so hard.
I read where Pamela Anderson came in nude with a birthday cake for Hugh Hefner and for the first time I masturbated standing up in the bathroom before I went to work and I came, STANDING - I had never came standing I always needed my clit to be pressured on top of - even on the bottom I have come if the man moves the right way (only you J!!! For the last four and a half years baby) anyway, but I never came using my hand standing up - what a crowning achievment, As I was coming I couldn't believe it - it really freaked me out - I am in my thirties that's when The Graduate happens and all that and a woman reaches her peak - so maybe tonight I will get J to go down on me and we'll try licking me to orgasm - OLAY! GET READY FOR THE DESTROYER

In three days my fabulous book will be available and I will do ANYTHING to get people to read it! I just want to tell my story - now I reread it - I know its downsides I have a long way to go before I am Hemingway or even Jen Wiener or is it Weiner? but I will get there - so enjoy the Destroyer - God I love this new place we are in -- I feel rich - it is so chi-chi - it's all old people and us - well, we are gettng old - J will be 40 this year, I, ahem, still have a few years left before I hit that wall - but fortunately, my mom gave me a break from the kids - any mother knows how much children are loved but are more exhausting than anything on the planet! Anything and I had a real bad day today at work - had to prep when I haven't in years - anyway - watch out THE DESTROYER IS COMING!!!

What a pain in the ass! God it sucked lugging everything around - this place is sooo much nicer though - it was a good choice - I'll write more this weekend I have the kids all week and boy are they rough,,,

I always thought I'd be a famous writer by now - that didn't happen - not yet if it's going to - what are your hopes and dreams? What do you think life has failed you? I am a freebird and always will be...whatever happens happens I learned something very disturbing about where I work today.But I am doing the best I can and that's all I can do, I long to be Ann Rule I think she has the coolest career on the planet - I love forensics and she's right there - I am very very depressed today..sorry - I am not a whiner - I just know that life is hell...my children are the lights of my life and without them and my man, when he's in a good mood I don't know what I would do...

my book is almost done I swear - I can't wait to get out of this neighborhood - it'll be nice when me and my kids can walk around without worrying about someone robbing us or trying to sell us drugs - I want a nice lifestyle for my kids - I already had my problems - I don't want my kids exposed to drugs the way I was - now I know - they are everywhere and then some but what happened to me at the age of 17 twisted me too much - I think I would have made it as a ficition writer had it not been for that - how do I come to that realization - because instead of focusing on what I should have been focusing on - I started wanting sex and drugs all the time - when I should have been concentrating on my passion- instead of stifling it...live and learn - I still have a few good years left - I hope....

I go insane - was anyone April fooled??? This was the first ywar I didn't get tricked - everyone is so serious where I work - why is everyone in the world do fucking serious all the time??? It drives me crazy - you only live once...why waste it with worry - I know, I'm one to talk... I don't so much worry as I obsess...I am talking to my sister while on the phone with my sister.
I can't wait to see my babies on FridaY - I can't wait!! He has a little party at Chuckie Cheese. He lost his first tooth. I am so proud. Even though it's a natural thing.
Everytime I think my book is ready I re-read it and I always find some little error  - SEND it back!
It's so warm out I am loving it!!!
HAVE TO ENJOY THE WEATHER.
ANYONE IN PHILLY KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT...